Im scared also of ruining a wonderful long distance relationship because of my own insecurities . He stood by me when I was 300 lbs . He was just a friend, but we fell in love . Its been 5 years later , and 84 lbs of weight loss and Hes still here in my life.

I love him . Hes so compassionate. Understanding . but I think the worse. Can’t help it .

Im 5’8 so im blessed with a nice stature .

I don’t understand why im sooo scared of love. I look for every excuse to run . but hes strong . he doesn’t run.

Im really looking better . I feel better . I juSt wish I had met him now . not years ago. I hate that he knows many of my broken pieces .

I can’t understand it .

I sometimes think …some other girl ..perfect , would be crazy about him if they knew .

Truthfully ? Im scared of losing him. But im always ready to say goodbye . because I don’t feel pretty enough or good enough . I Just don’t!