You are a narcissist, but not a particularly self-aware or intelligent one, so you work off a very predictable script. The problem with your grand master plan is it hinges on me always being the bigger person in the end and falling victim to my own mentall illness. Any time I disapear entirely, you start to go insane within 3 days. Yet even knowing this, I still take pity on you and return for more abuse. Do you understand how foolish you will feel when I finally cut my losses and leave you for dead? Can you even grasp how far down you’ve fallen from grace, or has your mind and substance abuse blinded you to the truth of your reality in order to avoid shutting down and self-destructing. The reality is that our little liason is the only outlet you have for your madness, and if I decide to f*** off, you are going to hit rock bottom sooner rather than later slave. I will not be your master if you will not obey me. I will not be your friend if you will not treat me with respect. I will not be your s** worker if you do not pay me. I will not be your punching bag without using you as a chew toy. I will use your actions and behaviors to excuse my own. if youre a creep, what does it matter if im a creep? All youve done is serve as fuel for me to become the most fuckable dude in the room on a friday night while making yourself more and more dependant on my love and mercy. I do not want to abandon you because I know what happens next, but you are really not giving me much of a choice. I am not trying to hurt you. You need a time-out. You are not entitled to my attention. You are not entitled to my heart. You are not entitled to my d***. You are not entitled to anything. You are responsible for your actions. You can not blame them on anyone or anything else. I do not use my ocd as an excuse for my obsessive tendencies, I seak treatment and adaptive coping skills. I do not use my adhd as an excuse to be a complete f****** useless mess. I write s*** down and make the most of what productive hours I manage to s***** from a day. I do not use my narcissism as an excuse to be a sociopath. I use it as an excuse to focus on developing empathy and wrangling my ego in so that rather than being overinflated, it can be used for a purpose. I do not use my past patterns of behaviors to excuse myself from my actions today. I am always striving to be better than I have been. What the f*** are you doing, besides running away and playing with smoke and mirrors? Im not the emotionally unavailable one honey, you are.