I want to move out of my house as soon as possible,
I have never had the most steady relationship with my mother. She has always been on the more strict, conservative side while I am the complete opposite. There is constantly this unbearable tension between us and I can’t stand it. Sometimes I just lie awake at night counting down the days I can move out, go to college, and never look back. I just can’t stand it here. There are so many things I keep secret from her simply because I know we would get into an argument about it. For example, my family has always been suuuuuper religious, as in super catholic. We go to church every Sunday without fail, and my mother has put me into every Sunday school program she could find, and got me confirmed as soon as possible. Meaning it’s just getting harder and harder to tell her I am not religious at all. I don’t believe in any of the stuff that is said at church and I don’t know how much longer I can take it. Most of the stuff that is said in church I completely disagree with, I wanna leave my religion and tell my mother but she would throw a fit. Our entire extended family is Catholic and conservative, and it would just cause some major problems not only with my mother, but with my entire family. I just can’t stand it anymore.