Next month I will hang myself in my room. I’m 17 and had severe depression for about 2 years and social anxiety for like my whole life. I had enough of my pathetic life, I can’t do anything right, I’m constantly stressed throughout the day and all I’m doing is procrastinating and thinking about death. I have only one friend and I have failed to develop any new friendships for past 7 years. I didn’t even try to form any romantic relationship because when I got interested in such things, I got f****** depressed and wanted to kill myself every single day so what’s the point of trying that. Besides I’m socially anxious so I would fail anyway. I’m done with myself, there is nothing I can look forward to in my future. If I won’t kill myself, my life will become even more miserable than it is now. I have everything prepared, all I need to do is wait for the right moment and even that is hard. I wish I could kill myself tomorrow, but that isn’t an option for me. I’m struggling to get through every day, but the thought of me dying soon is calming me down. The only thing pulling me away from suicide for past 2 years were my parents, but they want to get divorced now so I don’t give a f*** about how they will feel about me dying any more. 1 month and it will be over just like that.