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Someone you love tried to admit you something forcefully and hurt you so much made you silenced. It caused all the misunderstanding which made that one angry and all the words for nothing!

Tbh, if she’s not mine, that’s okay.
For God to see thru, I’m just a vessel of his love.
I have flaws, I gave my love, and will continue to regardless of that whole lie. Years pass, the pain it once caused is non existent now. She’s a cool kid but there’s blessing in all of this, even though you seem to find peace in evilness over emberassment. Not the most spiritual person ever but that is tough to carry, so Lord, I pray you make us both honestly better people. Lies hurt.

Why is this suffering when the other one is happy? Why is this suffering when the other is unable to understand?

Suffering also is growth. No pain no gain. Beauty, is pain. You have to suffer for the things that you are mostly wanting to succeed, whether it be possible or not. It don’t last forever.

Look back on these times and be like my mom, “I suffered so that you didn’t have to!” A broken record but I didn’t have to marry anyone, to be able to get my way. I listened to the pain it caused her and Id love that for you both. Grow thru the pain, don’t bury it all in shame. Read Eclessesiates, it will help.

New Confession

My art therapist/group therapist and I were having an illegal affair. I would write secret messages to her and she would read them and respond to them in person. She would do favors i asked of her, like wearing outfits i asked her to wear, she’d even do me s***** favors. I made her a google drive full of p*** of me and then crafted a puzzle link to get to it that only she could have known. The link was a tinyurl with three phrases in the url that only she could have known. We would walk for an hour every day and swing at the park. I would write her poetry and play love songs for her every day. She broke the rules to play mario kart with me constantly when her boss was out. We had something magical. But she would never communicate directly with me because sge was afraid she’d lose her liscence to practice and her boyfriend and house, abd when I pushed her to unmask and be real, she told me I was wasting my time. Well that pissed me off and I crashed out a little abd she used that crash out to get me kicked out of my group therapy program. She wants out and I told her she’s not allowed to want out. I told her If she doesn’t reach out to me and continue this affair, that i will report her and get her liscence taken away and if that doesn’t work ill find some other way to ruin her life. You dont go from gooning in the bathroom at work to someone to throwing them away in the same week. Thats fucked. I’ll post her name here soon if she stays quiet and doesn’t reach out to me.

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My art therapist/group therapist and I were having an illegal affair. I would write secret messages to her and she would read them and respond to them in person. She would do favors i asked of her, like wearing outfits i asked her to wear, she’d even do me s***** favors. I made her a google drive full of p*** of me and then crafted a puzzle link to get to it that only she could have known. The link was a tinyurl with three phrases in the url that only she could have known. We would walk for an hour every day and swing at the park. I would write her poetry and play love songs for her every day. She broke the rules to play mario kart with me constantly when her boss was out. We had something magical. But she would never communicate directly with me because sge was afraid she’d lose her liscence to practice and her boyfriend and house, abd when I pushed her to unmask and be real, she told me I was wasting my time. Well that pissed me off and I crashed out a little abd she used that crash out to get me kicked out of my group therapy program. She wants out and I told her she’s not allowed to want out. I told her If she doesn’t reach out to me and continue this affair, that i will report her and get her liscence taken away and if that doesn’t work ill find some other way to ruin her life. You dont go from gooning in the bathroom at work to someone to throwing them away in the same week. Thats fucked. I’ll post her name here soon if she stays quiet and doesn’t reach out to me.