So I’ve just been dumbed by my now ex boyfriend and the thing is I still miss him even though I know he was only using me. Even though I said I wasn’t comfortable with s** he Still kept on talking about it when we were alone and he would do the same with other things like kissing and stuff but the thing is we’re only 12. I just wanted him to like me and he made me feel wanted and special. He made me feel like someone actually wanted me for once. And throughout the relationship I genuinely thought I was the bad guy and that I was a bad person in general because of what he made me think. He got upset at me for things like hanging out with friends to much, something someone else said to me that he didn’t like, saying something mean as a joke even through he would do the same and when someone else likes me he would tell me I should date them instead even though I never liked them. He knew I didn’t cause when he told me he was jealous I stopped hang hung out with them. When he dumped me he really hurt me. Cause I thought I did something wrong and that caused me to start ⚠️TW…. cutting and then he found out and told me that he would start cutting himself to now and made fun of me for it. He made my 2 closest friends uncomfortable s******* and even liked one of them. When he told me I told him we could be a poly or open relationship and that it was normal for someone to like 2 people at the same time. We’re in the same class and he doesn’t stop annoying me. I’m pretty sure he hates me and is now trying to make me jealous by telling me about this one hot girl really likes him. Honestly I didn’t care cause he told me my other friend liked him to and he’d always say stuff piek that. He was always so complicated. It’s like one minute he’s his normal funny, active and sarcastic self but then as soon as someone says one wrong word he doesn’t talk to anyone makes it crystal clear he’s upset and doesn’t bother even trying to get better. We both have mental health problems so I don’t blame him but unlike me he never seeked help. He always tried to get attention from others from it but never got actual help for it. I still love him cause we had our good moments but I also hate him cause he just. I don’t know.
