I don’t think my fiancé finds me s******* attractive anymore. We’ve been together for 15 years. He saved me. I grew up in the foster system after my mother killed my whole family and tried to kill me. She stabbed me in the chest and neck 7 times. I get complete joy knowing she will spend the rest of her life in prison! Anyway, back to the relationship. He doesn’t touch me, kiss me, send me sweet texts or anything. I’ve tried everything to please him but it’s just not working out. I love him with every part of me and it s**** when someone doesn’t reciprocate those same feelings. We haven’t had s** in a year. Cuts literally driving me insane to lay next to him and not be able to touch him in anyway like I used to be able to. Now he says he doesn’t like people touching him when he’s asleep. I used to hold his BALLS while he fell asleep and now he won’t even let me touch him. It’s weird how things change so much. I plan on waiting for him to go to sleep and then I’m going to start playing with him. I’m going to s*** the soul out of him. He loves a good BJ so anytime I can get away with doing it I will.