i’m 16 and i’ve been struggling mental health for a long time. i remember starting to say alarming things about suicide in grade 4-5 to my science teacher

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i’m 16 and i’ve been struggling mental health for a long time. i remember starting to say alarming things about suicide in grade 4-5 to my science teacher when i was upset but she never talked about it to anyone or me again or never even comforted me. when i was 12 i was so convinced i was gonna do it, i had a plan, just wasn’t sure when i was gonna act on it but i wanted it to be soon. i’ve told my mom i wanted to die at 10 and she slapped me in the face. i’ve had really bad suicide urges but never yet to harm myself. i don’t cut myself but i self destruct rly bad. my whole life ive always been the one excluded, picked on, misunderstood, by others and family but i always had a big heart regardless. i had a toxic bf at 14 who used to threaten suicide to me and try to do it in front of me. hit himself, cheated on me, randomly dumped me for another girl and i never fully recovered. i’m still unsure if i was s******* assaulted because i’m so confused by a few things that happened. my siblings compared me to my dad all the time growing up, knowing that we all disliked him A LOT. never asked why i acted the way i did. they never paid attention to me. my mom and grandma are the closest ppl to take care of me emotionally and physically but i still feel so f****** alone. mo one knows the true me cus i beat it out of me. everyone i loved fucked me over not knowing how hard i care for these ppl. i was getting over the years of the urge of suicide bjt i’m getting really tired. my grandma and mom are the only ppl i’m alive for. and literally. my bf is unsupportive, my family is not tight, they don’t understand me or try to. my friends stopped talking to me. my dad recorded me having a break down and calling me sick and psycho and i needed help (in degrading ways). i will admit all my wrongs if i knew what i did. i just want it to stop.
i don’t want pity or replies or anything just needed to let s*** off my chest. idk when this is gonna end and i’m only 16 and i’m f****** tired. literally physically feel slower and i just feel like mt body is dying out on me. i don’t belong here. i don’t have anyone. i wanna be okay.

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i have identified as a cannibal for years now and i send every waking day researching and fixating on the fantasy of finally getting to bite down on that forbidden meat, ive even strongly considered mutilating myself just to finally taste it and even gone as far to become a scientist so i can lab grow human meat for myself, i have had harm ocd for longer then i can remember and there was a point when i tryed to get help and seeked therapy but my therapist never helped me, im so so so hungry and whenever i look at another human even my own friends and family i see nothing but forbidden food and i cant help but salivate. one day i promise this to you i will get my hands on human meat one day whether its ethical or not. my most dreamed off meal is a tender fall apart in your mouth smokey bbq human ribs, ive never wanted anything more, please, please please please if anyone has any connections, please find a way to contact me, i’ve never been so serious.

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