That’s not me, stranger and by the way, I don’t crave anyone really.

I mean there is a slight interest in few who I have known recently but it’s not a crave. I could take it or leave it. It doesn’t matter much. It’s a good feeling not to crave. It’s not like some of the losers on this site going crazy over one stupid person, or literally never shutting up 24/7 365 forever about g******* s** they don’t ever and will never get…. Insane people.

As for women I have had close personal relationships with in the past, especially the distant past. I have no interest in anything to do with any of them at this point in time. We don’t have the same mindset. People change. Them and me. I don’t want the same things I did at one time. My taste has changed. What I want is different. It’s not like I think I can say “look you are this… I don’t like that… you need to change and then maybe I’ll be interested” because the truth is, I wouldn’t. They are what they are. All the negative is their true self. They can’t change, it would be fake because people can not change what they are unless they want to. Which they don’t. ÑThey’re not even options to me and I don’t see what I saw in them then. Some of them I regret getting involved with in any way. My life would be better having not gotten involved. That’s not to say they’re bad for everyone, everybody wants and doesn’t want what they do and don’t want. Too much baggage and unwanted s*** on their part. In a few cases they managed to convince me they are against me. Whether they were or weren’t, maybe it some of it was games to stir up drama (which is a very ugly character trait) or they were aiming to hurt, I see them as the enemy or part of a group that I don’t want any part of. Permanently. It’s what they are to me. Not that I want a war, I’m not looking for one, I have not been trying to pick fights in many years, I disappear just to stay out of sight to not provoke people who do have issues. I want nothing to do with them.

So crave? No. It’s a good thing not to be attached in some way to something that is as negative as a bad relationship with a s***** person. I know because I have spent more of my life than not connected to something exceptionally negative. Being out of it as long as I have, I can say it’s better to be alone than with something just for the sake of it.

It’s true though. Stranger. we are strangers. You have always been to me. I said it one time on here, I see it resonates in your head. That hit you pretty hard huh? Good. It’s true. Do our calling me a stranger doesn’t hurt me. That might be hard news for you, it doesn’t effect me. just keep it in mind, you don’t need to repeat it like a f****** parrot. It’s just a fact. Nuf said but I’m glad it hit you hard enough that it’s bouncing around in your head.