I masturbated repeatedly using mind projection indicating to women that I’m a sissy boy who likes multiple women to give me s******* dildos up my b******* while I wear g string p****** and I indicated that my p**** is only 5 inches I indicated the look and smell of my b******* and I made s******* submissive facial expressions and that I was forced by women to be anally raped by men and that now I just let it happen and that I also s*** real p**** in front of women and I was feminine homosexual immature unprofessional pathetic disgusting stubborn selfish prideful lazy manipulative divisive irresponsible insensitive unloving unmerciful unforgiving ungrateful faithless hypocritical and I was impatient disrespectful I was ungodly I hardened my heart against God’s purpose for my life I looked at p*** involving women doing men up the b******* and mouth with s******* dildos and I used profanity and I was angry I engaged in coarse joking I gossiped and I passed judgment against others also I was anxious afraid worried paranoid and I lied