Youre an idiot, im not a narcissist, but i was raised by a narcissistic father. I am a victim of lifelong narcissistic and emotional abuse and manipulation. She is the most gorgeous girl ive ever met. But….When she pushes me away and…. i want to hurt her, i channel my father and say all the meanest, cruelest, edgiest, most shocking things i can possibly say to hurt her. I tell lies coated with poison to break her, and she believes me. She believes me when im evil, but not when im good, so she gets what she asks for. Im a monster because she treats me like one, not because its my true nature. She is the sculptor and i am the clay. I am acting as a reflection of her true nature, not mine.