i just want to get divorced already. even if we still love each other. there’s too much hurt already inside my heart. i have resentment and honestly… kinda feel like he’s always gonna f*** up. and i’m always gonna have to choose to forgive. i’m f****** sick of being the saint wife. i just want to make myself happy. i’m f****** over it. over caring about him and his feelings. having to take his feelings into consideration. i feel like he’s ruined my life. even if we smiled and laughed along the way. i had so much potential. i was going places. i’ve reverted back to who and how i was because of the weight of him and this relationship with and to him.