and being that christmas is just around the corner, my wife is already criticizing me for not getting shitfaced and making a fool of myself with her retarded family as usual, tenth year in a row now. for many years i just stayed home by myself on xmas and thanksgiving, watched movies, took naps, and just had myself a relaxing easy day, let her do whatever dumb s*** she wanted with her family, past year or two though she put pressure on me to come to their boring events, and now of course i have to change everything about myself in order to earn their approval. thinking i’ll go over there for half hour at best, if not just avoiding it altogether and staying home by myself. one of these days i may just cut loose and get completely fucked up at one of their events, it’s really something i don’t enjoy doing as i get out of control and violent, and really after you’re out of your 20’s there’s just no good excuse for getting that intoxicated anymore, doesn’t stop them of course, couldn’t possibly be an addiction issue with them, it’s definitely my fault for not being like that……
