i would rather cuddle and receive affection from someone who holds friendships sacred thanks. i’ve never been so disrespected and disregarded. we have nothing because anything of value we did, you took it upon yourself to turn around and do with lots of other people (rendering us void and meaningless). therefore, we have nothing together, and if you can’t go back and start from zero and behave like a proper friend (you never have), then by all means, yes, find a friend who is more like yourself, who lacks any form or loyalty. i thought we could be lifelong friends, and instead we are stuck in this imaginary deadlock where neither person is willing to extend themselves uncomfortable to fix this. as was stated before, ‘I–hate–you’. find someone casual who takes things about themselves they should be holding sacred and instead throws it around to any willing person like its meaningless leftover garbage that you care nothing about–where it blows and lands. that is not me. i am not your fuking garbage bin.
