I have plenty of time to cross s*** off my bucket list this way, and then i can go into phaze z without regrets. Sirem has until august 1st, 2021 to make amends and be my girlfriend, or at least fulfill my s***** needs, or its all over for all three of us. Ill take her boyfriends eyes and smash his kneecaps and ankles til theyre nothing but bone splinters. Then ill swallow all my meds and crash my car into a concrete wall ay 70 mph and leave Siren to pick up the pieces. Shes only allowed to be happy if im happy and fulfilled if I am happy and fulfilled. Enjoy the calm while you can.