I already gave up. There is no future without Tar. It is not day 1 of the rest of my life. The days all run together. This is purgatory. This is hell on earth. This is my punishment for taking her for granted. And no matter what I do, she’s never coming back, and I will never be ok with that. I don’t care enough to fight anymore. I am just waiting to die now. I will die by my own hand one day, alone and miserable. I will never love again. No one could ever make me feel the way she made me felt.