an old friend of mine of nearly 2 decades called me yesterday, apparently he, his wife, and their children have gone off the grid and are living on a farm somewhere raising chickens, home schooling the kids, and have for the most part covered the rabbit hole they went down and are now there to stay. He kept trying to get me to agree to come over and all this, any time I mentioned my wife and I were thinking about having a baby he’d get all over excited like a 14 year old girl and I’d have to downplay it because he signed off on life at 25 and just started procreating along with his political radicalization, and I guess he’s probably felt very lonely all these years being the only person who thinks what he’s doing is good or ok. His wife is mentally unstable and hates me and my wife for absolutely no reason, when we got married we sent them like 3 invitations that all mysteriously “disappeared and never got delivered”, and he ended up coming to the wedding all by himself and everything. Like anyone with half common sense can see how awful and bad this situation is, 5 kids deep now and still going, raising their children in a cult like enviroment ensuring they stand absolutely no chance at any kind of normal life when they grow up. Just ridiculous, and as I have learned numerous times in my life expressing concern is just seen as “talking s***” and it always ends up being my fault. As such I just keep myself distanced, I will never go over there and see them, and I just hope they’re all happy with themselves, about the best I can muster. I have always been an outcast in this world since I was young, and now in my 40’s I feel even more disconnected from the world, including people I thought would be lifelong friends and allies. Stop the madness people, we’re all old enough to know better, you’re all being played. Life is just not that exciting and interesting, there are good and bad people in this world and there is very little any of us can do about that besides keep to ourselves and try to avoid trouble. The pandemic ruined about 75% of my goals and life plans and I have had to find other interests and other avenues to persue. Disappointing sure but that’s life, it isn’t fair, and it’s never going to be. Deal with it, make the most out of what you got rather than hanging on what you don’t, or being driven to the point of insanity because your imaginary version of how the world should be isn’t reality. Years from now this era will be looked back upon with a laugh and a snicker about how retarded and stupid everyone has become. Should really ask yourselves why you think things are better this way…..