You want me to think? Ok.

Im thinking If you loved me more than you love him then why wont you give me a second chance, im sick, not evil. Ive done bad things but i can be good like 95 percent of the time and even when im bad i could be alot worse. I have so much love to give you. You are the girl of my dreams. Why camt we just start over? This is absurd. The only reasonable reason is because you expect me to wait so you can end your current relationdhip and process things. Is that it? Give me some small glimmer of hope to work towards dammit. You cant just waltz in here, tell me you loved me, and then tell me to ho f*** myself without any sort of explanation..you’re gonna see how much damage you did me yhe second you look me in the eye. You cant just expect me to have faith, im unmedicated and freakimg the f*** out right now because you turned my world upside down. I hate you sometimes but its not your faupt, youre sick too. Youd think that might make you a little more sympathetic though. You cant forgive me because you cant forgive yourself and youre afraid to be drowned in bliss. Youre scared that youll love being with me so much that ypull never be able to love the same way again, after i love you uncoditionally and without judgement through your worst days. No one elses arms would feel like homr. But i woild never abandon yoi, i will always forgive you and always want to be with you. I dont care what reason you think it wouldnt work, you are wrong. You are my soulmate.

Give me a dexent response that doesnt maje me want to kill myself and ill refrain from doing the 2 thinfs what i said i was gonna do. If you dont, ill do them 1 after the other tommorow night. That police detictive will know that the last thing i did before comitting suicide was j******* to your perfect t***.