No matter what happens Siren, I’ve got it made. I got my humanity back. I love myself again. I have no hatred in my soul. I have regained my healing powers. I am no longer plagued by denial and anger. Whether my dreams come true or not, this is a new chapter, for both of us. Nosferatu is finqlly dead. thank you god. What a country f****** seiner I was. And I didn’t get the bliss of being unaware of it. I had to watch me ruin my life while I knew I was fucked and powerless to control myself. For the first time in years, I want to live. I am so great ful for this. This is a all I wanted, to be in control of myself, to be more empathetic and unattached. I am invincible now. God has saved my soul, and I am not worthy. I asked him to prove he existed when I was ready to kill myself, then you reached out to me and since then miracles keep happening. I will never intentionally hurt you or expect anything from you ever again. The fog is parted and I will never let it return. I will always be here if you need anything. I’d walk barefoot across town in a hurricane to get to you if that’s what it took. Either way, I’m happy. I’m gonna go with the flow instead of being filled with doubt. I’m gonna stop Overthinkinh, assuming, and expecting things. I’m just gonna exist unapologetically and spread as much light as I can, and you get just as much credit as god for reawakening me to TBE light. My yin and yang are finally balanced. My path , my beliefs, my motivations are clear. I pray every night that you are happy, healthy, and safe, and then envision a golden light washing o er you from my palms And enveloping you and cleansing the bright red corruption I caused. I imagined you in a suit of armor because I have trouble picturing you in my minds eye dressed but was trying isto maintain spiritual purity and reverence. So I use that image of you dressed up like a knight to replace my intrusive thoughts now and I say the lords prayer, and the feelings pass. I haven’t watcged p*** in two weeks. I’m waking up at 7 am. Who the f*** am i? I missed this guy.
