I have been abandoned by every friend , except 1. I have just 1 sister who is my strongest support , I’m alone most days and nights , but I am happy in a way. I live in low income housing , food stamps are my main source to get food . No one invites me over , unless I’m their free chauffeur. But I feel soo at peace in a way , money comes and money goes . But I feel sooo hopeful . I honestly have no idea why . I really don’t understand. I have a plan , tiny plan , to earn money. Not looking to get rich , but just earn enough to supplement my income from disability. I’m facing my second amputation in less than a month , but I still feel hopeful and blessed .