I am a raging drug addict, s** addict and total loser. I am a trucker who has abandoned my wives and children. I am in love with my same s** partner currently, but I have cheated on her/him so many times with drugs and transsexual prostitutes as well embarrassed myself while using crack online dressed in women’s painted and lingerie doing gross behaviors to these live cam websites grossing out even the online cam prostitutes I visit completely intoxicated and goes on and on that I wish I could tell the truth and have her , my love forgive me, I want to go home to my love to be faithful to her to give her all I can but being a drug attic and s** addict makes things very very very difficult for me to be a good person I hate my family , my parents whom are very evil, raised there children in a very sick environment destroying the lives of 4 children all ending up a mess, my little sister and brother are exact copies of the insane parents rolled into one person, grandiose and disgusting people they are, my eldest sister suffered most abuse is borderline mentally retarded because of my parents and me just a drug infused, over s******* charged p************ , Lord help me please forgive me please stop this insane lifestyle I live so that I might be a better person for my love and maybe for my children one day that I might be able to see them again and beg their forgiveness though I deserve none in Jesus name I pray for absolution and for your love amen