I had a very traumatic childhood. I am a childhood s***** assault survivor. My first boyfriend was very narcissistic and abusive. I am okay now. I just still struggle heavily with conflict. I am unhappily married but I know that I’ll never have the courage to speak up and get a divorce. I dream of the day that someone actually wants me. That someone hugs me tight and it feels like they really mean it. I may never know the feeling of actually being loved and wanted by anyone other than my children. I know that should be enough but it feels like I am missing so much. I’d do anything to feel like I had a partner. 💔