I catfish. Or what I want to say, is I use an alter ego online. I don’t show anyone’s face nor my own, I don’t speak, I don’t show pictures of anyone else. I use an alter ego because the person I am today doesn’t feel right. I feel alone. Pretending that I’m a girl online makes me feel loved, girls get more attention online than guys. People actually want to be my friend. But lately, that hasn’t worked and I’m devolving into loneliness as I push away my irl friends and my alter ego’s. I feel very alone. I don’t have bad thoughts but I don’t want to live a life of solitude.