The more I think about it. The more I brake it down I’m not going to even think about it as a mistake anymore. yes it is something I did carelessly, but I did have wild fun time. Maybe I could have pick a better person, but it is what it is. Man I feel so much better. sometimes with a little writing things out we can be our own therapist. I hope if anyone out there feels like they made a big life mistake just remember s*** gets better life goes on. It will take time, but there is a reason for it. I know I’ll have my days where it really gets to me but I’m just going to keep moving on and try my best to make better choices and not let the guilt eat me alive.

I can’t live in fear thinking it will come back to haunt me or everyone find out. I’ll have to deal with that when and if the time comes.

I just need to stop thinking about the person and feeling embarrassed about who it was. I mean if anything they lucked out but they are too close to my inner circle and that is the big reason for regret. The only thing I can hope is that the person moves on too and forgive me for my actions and keeps their word to keep everything a secret. I don’t hate them I actually always thought they where pretty cool but drugs and alcohol make people do f****** crazy s***. I learned a big lesson I forgive myself. Dang f****** life sometimes really makes you feel human.