i'm with a guy that has yet to invite me to his home. We are in a long distance relationship. ( 5 years ) I have NEVER touched him or let him touch me.

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i’m with a guy that has yet to invite me to his home. We are in a long distance relationship. ( 5 years )

I have NEVER touched him or let him touch me. not gonna. The pandemic hit. So we did meet ONE time, 2 yrs ago. But I really feel my life is passing me by. Its being wasted.

He “expects” everything his way. His comfort. His cheapness. He has NEVER, comforted me or ever reassured me. I have tried to move on. To find other good men. But they are always being chased off. They vanish into thin air. I feel VERY controlled and manipulated. I just am fed up with this. I really am.

He loves the camera. he is kinda creepy. I am starting to want to leave. I have been trying for years to break away. He isn’t even a good friend. he s**** at it. He is petty and stingy. I am just tired. I miss the old days, when guys were kind. They knew how to impress and date a girl.

He loves his comforts. Naked on a camera. I have zero tolerance for his sick twisted head. …he has little to no respect for my feelings. I wish he would end it. I would love it if he broke up with me.

I”d miss him. But i’d be fine. ITs not like he is here. or ever truly was. ITs all a mind game he plays. I”m just beyond the head game he seems to enjoy. I”m bored of it.

There are other good guys left. I just know. I just wish I could slip under the radar and meet with one.

but for now..i’m stuck in a relationship i want out of. Pandemic has really screwed my social life up. I have no one else. (except my phone buddy) a Text buddy. its all he is. I am sooo tired of robot s***. Sick of it all.

I”m not a cheat. but wow am i tempted to. Ugh…not that its really cheating. he has NEVER even touched or kissed me yet. lol…i’m losing hope he ever wil. he is kinda dumb and slow.

Hell so am i..to tolerate this. I deserve better than him. he is an idiot.

He never asks probing quesitions…or tries to climb into my mind. its all been about HIM HIM HIM. i’m getting very bored bored bored of my own company. I am. 5 years of this b*******…is really knawing at me.

i haven’t been on a TRUE and real date..in YEARS. the kind where a MAN. pickes me up..and takes me to dinner. And then drives me home….and kisses me goodnight. and goodybe. no s**. just a wonderful night of converstaions…etc.

It sure feels like forever.

He doenst have to pay for the date. but it would be nice…to meet someone kind and truly open to dating a good woman. It sure feels like its been an eternity.

New Confession

I repent for blasphemy against holy spirit disbelieving somethings in bible sry but im still struggling with some things but i beilueve he exists anx mlst the bible. I still think some things are not great advice or many parts are contradictory. I believe jesus exists does for ours sins & the Trinidadian thing etc etc it’s just a couple small things in bible that I get stuck on I also disbelieve he can hear me pray. It’s not bc I don’t believe he hears anyone’s prayers or bc satan is whispering lies telling me Jesus can’t hear me etc it’s just feels like I’ve been praying on my knees for long time and many things never got better in 2 years I actually feel worse in life and faith then i did 2 years ago. But I do read the bible more/bible studies. Can’t get myself to pray very much these days. I used to pray 2 to 3 times a day now I just feel like.. just nothingness when I pray been like that for like a year

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