Dude you are completely unhinged. At this point, when you are at the point where you are making psychotic violent death threats towards innocent people… You can’t possibly think there is any hope in a normal healthy non toxic relationship of any of kind. Do you really want to even just f*** her? She is obviously in no way interested in you and you have completely lost our mind. Not a woman in this world, no matter how messed up they are, is going to willingly get with you talking like that. Do you read that? I will say it again, and it’s a fact NO WOMAN IN THIS WORLD NO MATTER HOW MESSED IN THE HEAD THEY ARE WILL EVER WILLINGLY PUT THEMSELVES WITH YOU TALKING LIKE THAT. It’s already too late, you came seriously unhinged and you showed it. So you might as well move on. It’s a fact. You will never be with her now. You lost your cool. Big time.
You should stop and get a hold of your head. As bad of an option as the other guy is, you’re no better. Desperate, clingy and psychotic are bad. People run from that. Not sure how old you are, but you’ll learn that if you haven’t already. Or you will end up like the dude on the run now for being a psycho.