To the g****** SSI age 56? you sound like you are in my boat. I’m also on SSI. I’m 52. Its hell. It hurts to lose your pride. I know. BUT. I am not giving up. I have a plan. I think you should plan to as well go forward in living your life. Join a gym. (i lost 75 lbs) in a year. I once was 310. I lost 80lbs. I have more weight to go. But i’ll be damned if i’ll give up. And you have a life waiting for you to live. Please fight the battles of your mind. I know. I also fight the battles that rage inside my mine. Its not easy. But let me tell you. There is sooo much life waiting for you. Cut your Goals..to 3. Without your health, you have nothing. you need to focus on eating right and some little form of exercise. if you can. try something.

I know the meds can cause massive weight gain. I hate it. but fat can be cured.

keep that in mind. and tell yourself that. FAT CAN BE CURED. its not a lifelong sentence. unless you accept it. so….DON’T label yourself that. its not true. There is a thin girl inside you waiting to emerge. Nothing tells a caterpillar it will be BUTTERFLY. it just happens.

PLease do not give up. Fight for your own power to prevail. If you are a writer? get busy writing stories to WOW them. (thats my goal) …There is always room for more than ONE book on a shelf. Maybe someday….yours AND mine will make it there. lets work toward that dream.