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I have no friends whatsoever

I go to a therapist every 2 weeks to talk about my problems
Im struggling hard in my personal life
Noone wants to hang out with me
Noone cares about me

All i have left is my family who think im a loser
I also have a good friend online but he is living in another country and he doesnt have a lot of time since he is working a lot
I think im bothering him
Dude wtf is wrong with me
I remember a couple years back i had so many friends and a beautiful girlfriend
And now…
Even my family doesnt truly care its sad but true
My best friend died a year ago
I still cant comprehend it
Neither can i understand it
F*** dude
Noone cares
My old friends just ran from me since im not how i used to be back then
Lonelyness is killing me slowly and i dont know what to do against it
I dont fit in with most ppl my age
Even if i try to
They still treat me like im awkward
F***

New Confession

A Truth feels weird to me since I’ve been a compulsive liar most of my life, I will teel the truth as I know it. My father is a Baptist pastor and mom’s family were missionaries. dad gave me and my older sister horsey rides on his knee, his knee bouncing on my cl1t felt so good I asked for rides and pulled his hands to my chest for n1pple stimulation. Tucking me in bed at night he would kiss me on the lips while rubbing m cl1t and s*** my n1pples each a few seconds. My sister across the room would get the same but it lasted way longer. One night I woke up and heard my sister moaning, the moon shining through the window I could see she was on top of Dad moving around. I asked them what they were doing, dad said come over and see. It was the first time he put his little finger in side me while I watched and felt his c0ck going in and out of my 11 year old sister. My sister got mean with me after Dad let me rub my cl1t on his c0ck before he went to her bed but Dad made her stop being jealous by letting me l1ck her cl1t while his c0ck was inside of her. When Sis was pregnant they told me never to say anything about what we did at night and to lie to mom when she asked questions. We rehearsed questions and answers from the time I was 8. he told me he loved me the most and on my 9th birthday he let me put his c0ck inside me a little ways filling me with his c()m. It hurt but he sensations were epic I wanted more. Sis got a boyfriend the next year so I had Dad all to myself, I’m thin so I did get my periods as soon as Sis so I had my first baby a month before I turned 14. The congregation made remarks to us because Dad asked us to have s3x with boys at church to give him someone to blame for our pregnancies. My sisters boyfriend, an alderman’s son, had already graduated high school so I did it with his brother who had an old Chevy car. I swore to Dad I loved him more but I really liked being pregnant and having s3x with both of them. After my baby was born mom put it up for adoption to a church member as my sisters was taking so much of her time. I’ve watched my only daughter grow up and become a Nurse, marry and have two daughters of her own but only say hi or how are you doing to her, she doesn’t know she’s adopted. I’m 62 now, I’ve never told the whole truth to anyone till now.

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A Truth feels weird to me since I’ve been a compulsive liar most of my life, I will teel the truth as I know it. My father is a Baptist pastor and mom’s family were missionaries. dad gave me and my older sister horsey rides on his knee, his knee bouncing on my cl1t felt so good I asked for rides and pulled his hands to my chest for n1pple stimulation. Tucking me in bed at night he would kiss me on the lips while rubbing m cl1t and s*** my n1pples each a few seconds. My sister across the room would get the same but it lasted way longer. One night I woke up and heard my sister moaning, the moon shining through the window I could see she was on top of Dad moving around. I asked them what they were doing, dad said come over and see. It was the first time he put his little finger in side me while I watched and felt his c0ck going in and out of my 11 year old sister. My sister got mean with me after Dad let me rub my cl1t on his c0ck before he went to her bed but Dad made her stop being jealous by letting me l1ck her cl1t while his c0ck was inside of her. When Sis was pregnant they told me never to say anything about what we did at night and to lie to mom when she asked questions. We rehearsed questions and answers from the time I was 8. he told me he loved me the most and on my 9th birthday he let me put his c0ck inside me a little ways filling me with his c()m. It hurt but he sensations were epic I wanted more. Sis got a boyfriend the next year so I had Dad all to myself, I’m thin so I did get my periods as soon as Sis so I had my first baby a month before I turned 14. The congregation made remarks to us because Dad asked us to have s3x with boys at church to give him someone to blame for our pregnancies. My sisters boyfriend, an alderman’s son, had already graduated high school so I did it with his brother who had an old Chevy car. I swore to Dad I loved him more but I really liked being pregnant and having s3x with both of them. After my baby was born mom put it up for adoption to a church member as my sisters was taking so much of her time. I’ve watched my only daughter grow up and become a Nurse, marry and have two daughters of her own but only say hi or how are you doing to her, she doesn’t know she’s adopted. I’m 62 now, I’ve never told the whole truth to anyone till now.