it’s a sad reality which you don’t want to hear because life should be fun, it’s a gift, because it’s a really negative reality, which comes across as hate. I find in life that people are like that. They perceive hate when it’s not hate. It might be being negative, or brutally honest, truthful, it’s a real downer when you think about it, but it’s actually true. Sad realities. You can’t deny it.

I know all this, I believe it and I’m alright with it. That’s the way it goes and yeah, maybe my realizing that turned me into a bit of a selfish a******, but I am an honest a******.

It isn’t hate. I have also come across people who say for example I don’t want to be around them. That’s my choice in life, I have my reasons, I stand by them, I trust my judgement but it results in me being distant, not saying much and generally avoiding them, maybe even disappearing from their life because I mean what I say and I believe in it. I want nothing to do with them for one reason or another and they take it as hate and I’m a bad man as if I’m attacking them. I am simply having nothing to do with them. I want none of it, so I’m a bad man. It’s almost criminal. I’m hateful as if they are entitled and I am obligated to give my time. I am not attacking or going after, I just want no part of so I’m full of hate. I’m hateful. No. I may be an a******, but I’m real.