I don’t think the therapy is working dude. Maybe it’s time to cut back on the the pot and get back on psychiatric medication. You need to stop. Seriously. F*** right off, no one f****** cares. You’re tripping, punk. You’re gonna regret this for the rest of your life. You are acting like a hardass now, but how will you cope with what you did when you go back to normal? You chose violence. You did this. Your mental illness is not an excuse for this level of hate. What you’re doing is a serious form of psychological abuse. You’re fucked dude. You should probably kill yourself to be honest. Spare everyone the trouble of dealing with you. Take a couple days off the computer and do some mushrooms shithead. Some forced self-reflection will do you some good.