I am lonely and depressed now, because soon a big life change will happen and I will be able to appreciate it that much more. I’m going to spend money I saved this year, I’m going to spoil myself, I am going to shamelessly indulge, I’m going to hit on anyone I find attractive, I’m going to enjoy myself to the fullest.

Because there’s nothing here for me anymore. I love being this close to my family, but they’re all doing their own thing anyways. I’m glad I had this time with them to know with certainty I aint missing a goddamn thing by living so far away.

I have a world to conquer, and I can do it from here. I can hardly enjoy myself here. Everyone is so boring and unambitious.