Watching movies with ex sister in law laying her head in my lap. Totally lazy relaxing time. She asked if she could ask something intimate, I laughed and told her that despite our currently being platonic, I had paid her for s** for months and after what my ex/her sister had told her about the breast latching and how juvenile and embarassing it was to learn that she knew about that, asking me if she could ask a personal question seemed pointless and silly. She was looking up at me but seemed shy and nervous. I reminded her that we were becoming each others’ safe space. She asked me if the thing about latching onto her sister’s breast was some kind of mommie issue for me, and that her sister had said that that was how it struck her. She could not even look me in the eye as she asked, she eas staring at my navel. I told her that sure it was possibly a part of it, but that all men have some low level of that in them, just as all women have some form of daddy thing/issue. That I had always figured that was the case for us all. But I also told her that this with my ex/her sister was different, that it had been a thing that started with her sister a long time ago, and that breast latching, whether it desxualized me or aroused me at different times, was something that was just instinctively very mentally and emotionally bonding for me with her sister, it simply became more so and more common since her sister knew that it would sustitute for “normal” s** and she could avoid other forms of actualy s**. So that it had obviously been me that had developed an affinity for it in lieu of a real s***** relationship with her sister. She told me that it seemed strange yes fascinating, and that she had always been curious about latching onto a breast but that she had zero lesbian in inclinations and that she could never bring herself to do it. That she did not see how it could be anything other than arousing and could be tranquil instead. I told her that i did not have the means to convince her that she woild just have to take me at my word.
