I’m in quite a predicament. I’m a gay guy and I’ve been in love with a woman for a loooooooong time now and I don’t want to ruin the friendship I have with her and now there are like four other dudes who are fighting for her attention with the intention of marrying her while she always said it that she never want to get married or have a serious relationship with a guy due to how all of those would decrease the quality of her life. Meanwhile I’m here drowning in tears and thinking that these men don’t deserve her and wanting to let her know but at the same time being scared of that and knowing for a fact that I have waaaaaaaaaaay more in common with her than those other guys and that I understand her feelings way better than them and would know how to prevent her from wanting to leave the relationship if I was the one in it with her. I’m also scared that she might find having s** with a guy who has been with other guys disgusting or just not desirable. So many things to wonder about and all I can do is sit here and day dream about the impossible scenario where she’s pick me and start to look at me as not ‘a gay guy friend’ and more than that and actually staying in a any relationship that we might have. Little did I know in the past that I’d fall for a girl but I’m so so sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo happy about that aside from all the struggle.