To: this is something that have been so hard for me to open up about
Me: you said homosexual – so I assume you are male.
It is tough being a Muslim with feelings for same s** men, but they are who you are and you should not be ashamed of the feelings you cannot control.
As long as you NEVER admit to anyone how you feel about s** and keep that hidden, you should be able to continue with your life, without necessarily getting married to a female, unless you really want to.
It is not your fault that you are the way you are – there was a mix up in the genetic makeup of your body, you should have come out as a woman, but you came out as a man instead.