Her insanity, whatever.

I’m the first, I’m the best. Anything is just meh.

Don’t let her cool you either. Manipulation it has been 9 years since I got rid of every known way that we could possible communicate, I could not waste another minute on her hoping she would “show up” and wiped any hope out of m head. She’s a hopeless case. I can’t have the type of turd floating around me, that she puts around her. Mind you, me giving up 9 years ago (truly) didn’t make it any better. I still have these f****** turds picking my scabs like my f*** head Boss just yesterday. 9 years later…. But don’t let her cool you into thinking I still try, I write, call whatever. I have no way to do that, she has no way to do that, and like I said, I gave up. Truly. Going back to her now, for me, would be like going back to a habit that is detrimental. Like drugs or alcohol, cigarettes. They offer nothing, but they take away from our health. It’s not healthy. She has nothing healthy to offer to a relationship. Especially me, but I don’t think anyone could possibly benefit from being with her.

BUT I’m the first, before every one way f you, and I am the best, to her. Unknown that. A few people other than her know it too. Just the way it goes.