you can’t just be. you are always scheming to have something over on someone, carefully gathering every emotion they have so you can later throw it back at them in a way to force an insecurity in them. you try to pretend that it’s natural, but it’s not, you meant it that way. you can’t be happy unless you have a trigger to pull on someone. that is a defect in you, not me. i can’t fix that. you can.
