if i had known you were coming back i would not have left obviously, i waited a year. there was nothing left for me at that place careerwise and also what my family needs. all for the best, maybe i too would have been publicly shamed. once again i was saved by forces other than my own. it’s ironic, once again, people who are mean to me are put in their place by the universe. i don’t mean you baby, the ones pretending like i was not worthy, always is someone waiting for an opportunity to knock me down if she can. you were just seeing that you moved ahead in the world—weak, but not all shameful. it is nice here, so many attractive for me to lie my eyes on, even if i don’t have the desire to get them just yet. so many interested, it is just a matter of sorting and actually having the desire to. of course there will always be a place for you my sweetheart.
