To: Ever since i can remember i never felt truly happy my dad and mum used to neglect me
Me: Do as I do, live every day as if it is your last and pack as many positive things which you do for yourself, into each day.
When you are only thinking and living in the moment, life is a lot easier and you don’t have to think any further ahead than the next few minutes.
What has gone, has gone for good. You can’t change anything back then, because it is in your history, all you can do is learn from previous experiences, to try and not make the same mistakes again.
You are 14, I don’t know where you live or your culture, or if you can leave home and live on your own, or if your parents will choose your husband for you and you have no choice in the matter, but while you only live for the moment, those things will resolve themselves in the fullness of time and life will be a lot easier to deal with, in the here and now.
Don’t push yourself on everybody else, because they will shy away from you, thinking you want more than they are prepared to give.
If you have a small group of kids you like hanging around with, do that and let them absorb you into their group at their own pace and everything should work out just fine.
Good Luck, Best Wishes