What a god damned abusive monster I was, almost dying in a snowstorm so I could sneak into your hospital room to soothe you through your panic attacks. If I just wanted to f*** you, I wouldnt have bothered trying to impress your family and friends. You were special. F***. Just leave. I cant f****** do this anymore. I’m so tired. You only ever saw me for my mistakes, but who are you to judge me?