When I go close he pulls away. When I lose interest and gain it in someone else he panics and falls to depression. When I want to be near he pushes me

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When I go close he pulls away.

When I lose interest and gain it in someone else he panics and falls to depression.

When I want to be near he pushes me away and when another guy shows interest he suddenly wants me.

When I’m available he will suddenly treat me like I’m not an option but when I am interested in someone else suddenly he wants me badly and now he loves me.

Is it so hard to just let a woman be loved? Grabbing and holding me only to avoid loneliness not because you love me.

I want love I want marriage and I want babies and if you’re not gonna give that to me let me go be with that older man who will absolutely give me all that and more. He’s already done more for me then you ever did. Now I know why women want older men. Older men are really the best.

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relapsed and i am always slightly drunk now. i buy big bottles of vodka and mix a strong drink every few hours throughout the day. i started spiking my morning protein shake with alcohol and most of my water intake is whatevers in the sodas i mix it with. i keep a flask on me to pour into whatever sodas or juice i have on hand. i drink right after i wake up and drink during breaks inbetween class. i drink on the bus home and drink once im there. i dont get very drunk or blackout but im not as sharp as i was before and i look and feel like s*** all the time

ive been wanting to inject ketamine into my veins again soon but im usually drinking and you cant mix k and booze. im a mess lately and still trying to function as best as i can while being a walking dumpster fire. life is hard lately and the only way out is through regardless of your state

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