To: im starting to believe that nobody will ever fall in love with me.
Me: How you see yourself is irrelevant, because how others see you is from their perception, not yours and that is what matters.
You need to work on your personality, read newspapers, have an opinion about things in general, brush up on speaking to the opposite s**, without getting embarrassed about what you say or how you go about it, everything takes time to learn and it is not easy when you have to do it for yourself and it does not come naturally, as it does with some people.
Dress brightly, wear colors which make you stand out from the crowd, it does not matter how silly you feel, you draw to you, others who also dress brightly and they are the ones you want to be with, because they are going places and nobody is going to stop them.
When you are confident that you can sell yourself and what you have to offer, then you won’t have any difficulty finding the opposite s** to f***, it is how it is.
Nobody wants to be with someone who is as shallow as a sheet of paper with nothing to offer, except embarrassing periods of silence, when they have nothing to offer to the conversation, or relationship.