That night in Dec 2007 at a restaurant in Houston, I was overwhelmed by the occasion, nervous and out of place – made an a** out of my self. I lived through that ignominy till date but no more. Not my fault. How would I know ? What is etiquette in the new world? I know not how to talk in social gatherings. Shy, timid is me. You have no right to judge me. I am from small town. I have never been in company of people so rich. My clothes stink, I sweat a lot. I am sorry i hurt your nostrils with my body odour. Insulting me by asking about my personal hygiene routine. Gifting me deodorant. It was cruel. Sucker that I was – I still carried on like nothing happened. I gave up a promising career for friendship. I lost everything. You people gained. I never got my due from the business partnership. Years later the humiliation continued at birthday party and dinner nights with other friends. One day you became too greedy , selfish and blind by hatred – you threw me out. You got new friends from high places. They ditched you after gaining good money. All your projects failed. You still had family money to bail you out . I had nothing .I don’t trust anybody anymore. Jesus help me with success. Put me back on track .