I’m the one who almost died blowing 70 in a snowstorm and lied to the receptionist to visit you in the Hospital. I want to apologize for rushing things. I want to apologize for trying to influence your emotions. I’m sorry I betrayed your trust and then tried to make it seem like it was for your own good. I’m sorry I went nuts and blew up your phone at 4am when I thought I was losing you. I’m sorry I then proceeded to go completely off the deep end and try to intimidate you into not cutting ties with me. I’m sorry I haven’t been able to let go. I’m sorry that I spent years trying to get revenge for something that was my fault. I’m sorry I fell in love with you, and I used to be sorry I ever met you, but it was clearly fated by the flame. I’m sorry I still care, and want you more than anyone else. I’m sorry I’m so jealous of him. I’m sorry I could never be good enough for someone as special as you. I’m sorry that this false hope makes me want to drop everything and wait by the phone. Please forgive me.