To: But what I do know is that I did it with a man I loved, also I love s** but I am a good and worthy young woman.
Me: It is all about your culture. The expectations of what was considered decent by your parents was passed down to you and because times have changed and the old ways have changed because of the internet, p*** movies, iPhones and everything else, the old ways no longer really apply to you and you correctly experimented.
Most guys want an untouched virgin, who they can train to whatever they want and few want someone who has tasted what s** feels like and have s***** demands of their own, as you do.
To be totally honest, I have never fucked a virgin, because I have a really large p****, when I am aroused and I did not want to cause a virgin any pain or discomfort, if ever I fucked one – so I never did and I love women who have been fucked and enjoy s**, because that makes the whole thing a lot more fun and interesting for me.
On the one hand you have your culture which stops you from marrying, because you are no longer a virgin and on the other you have the internet and technology and access to all sorts of p*** (pornhub is a good place to start).
If you can’t find someone to marry you in your own culture, because you are no longer a virgin, then advertise online for a s***** partner, with marriage on the table and choose from the multiple of guys, in whatever country interests you in living in, instead and move overseas to live in another country and establish yourself there instead.
I would suggest, you want someone with a good job, a home of their own and money in the bank – you really don’t want to marry a no hoper.
Why sit on the back of a bicycle, when you can sit on the back seat of a car instead, sort of thing.
Think internationally, not locally and move overseas, rather than staying a s*** or worse in the village where you happen to live, or for that matter, take second best, because you have been “used”, where, in fact, virginity is more a curse than a reality.