To: I have many guilts over many decades of marriage.
Me: Your first choice of female companion, who you married, did not provide you with the s** you wanted and it is how it is.
If you want to be with your lover, who does satisfy you in all ways, then what is stopping you from leaving your wife, who never satisfied you, for your lover who does.
Life is tough and sometimes we have to be tough, in our lives, to put our priorities first, over somebody else’s, who does not provide the love or s** we need to satisfy our lives.
We are only here this time and life is really quite short and there is no point, going through life, wanting change, when you are not prepared to make that change for a better life, for you – it is how it is.