To: just got the idea of writing here since this is my first time to confess here,
Me: 18 is very young, you have not lived any of your life yet, so why would you want to kill yourself now, of all things?
Killing yourself is never about, just you, but your parents and friends and relatives and everyone else who knows you, what about them and their feelings if you did.
Don’t you care about any of them or how your suicide will affect each and every one of them. Your parents reason for having you, would be wasted, as if they never needed to live in the first place, because they don’t have you to carry on their line.
Your suicide will destroy them emotionally and leave them asking themselves why and what they could have done to help you – it will probably shatter their marriage and destroy everything about you, they hold dear and might end their respective lives prematurely.
I don’t know if there is life after death, in some other form, but consider this – when your father came in your mother’s c***, he release 1 billion sperm and the only sperm of all of those, that made it to your mother’s egg and fertilized it at precisely the right moment to create you, was that one sperm and you won the lottery of life and all of those other sperm lost their right to the life you were given and now you want to destroy yourself….so what about them.
It is suggested that people who suicide go to Hell and for eternity and Hell is nothing like life here and now, but eternal torture, fear and pain and for eternity – nothing like your experiences of life, but much, much worse than that and deservedly so, because of the life any of those other sperm could have had, but which you won for yourself and now you destroy yourself – you deserve nothing better but the worst of whatever fate decides for you, after you die and you can spend eternity wishing you had not killed yourself instead and serve you right (shudder).
I have come close to ending my life several times, the last time (I am a jumper) a cone of silence descended over me and a voice came into my head and said there is nothing wrong with you physically it is all financial and I turned around and walked away – just before I launched myself into space head first to die, many stories below – and that is why I am still here today.
I have learned how to enjoy my life since and I am grateful for the opportunity to live my life fully and to die of natural causes when my life eventually ends, but in the process, I have become caring of others and my place in my life, so that if there is a good place and a bad place my spirit could go to, hopefully, I will end up on the good side, as you should try to do too.
We only have the one life and once we are dead, there is no coming back and the purpose of life is to learn to be whatever you become and whatever you get out of the life you have been given – so please, reconsider and don’t kill yourself, but find ways to enjoy your body and your life and the life you have been given, instead.
