i want to become successful for my parents. they r the only people (especially my dad) that i love to death and even the thought of losing them makes me cry. but i always feel like a disappointment. like i’m not good enough. everyone is doing something with their lives. they all have something to offer. i don’t. i’m not athletic, musical, or smart. the only thing i consider myself to be is smart but then i remember my grades are just average and to have all As is not a big deal. and now i have a very low B so i have nothing to offer. i’m useless. i’m nothing. i’m an unattractive, ugly, useless person. and i want to be smart again. i want all As again. please. grades are what i clung too for validation. without them i’m absolutely nothing. why is mollie and naomi always better than me? i hate them. i hate them so much. especially mollie. naomi isn’t that bad but Mollie i f****** hate u. u r so fake and toxic and pretend to be some perfect innocent christian girl. i hope u go to hell.