I want to be free. I have a noose around my neck. I waited in line for half an hour to speak to someone on the suicide prevention chat line and once it was my turn, my internet dropped me and I lost my place in line. Now the line is twice as long. No one will ever be there for me. Im starting to think I cannot get help. I want to die. I want to just lean into this cord noose until I stop breathing forever. I’ve lost everything. My home, my relationships, my career, and even my dog is dying. I’ve lost everything. I’m ready to die. I have PTSD and chronic lifelong depression. I’ve never known anything else. My mother used to beat the shit out of me with a 2×4. My life is hell.
i cut my wrists to ribbons.
I am homeless.
I am poor.
I am a targeted minority.
I am transgender.
I am miserable.
I WANT TO BE FREE.
I want to die.
The world is already ruined, my generation has a grim future, and my government and culture are trying to erase me and criminalize my existence. I hate this world.
I want to leave it.
I hate my species.
I want to end it.
Bigots and I have at least one thing in common: We both wish I had never been born.

All Comments

  • Hey I know I’m not a professional but if you want to or rant or simply need advice I’m here for you if you need to talk x

    Anonymous January 19, 2020 3:54 am Reply
  • Hi,
    You need anti depressant tablets to help you with your problems,.
    Go and see your doctor and have him prescribe them to you.
    It will take about 3 weeks for the tablets to take full effect.
    When your mind is settled, your emotions are under control and you can think clearly, then remove all of the negatives from your life and keep only the positives and move forward to a happy and positive future.
    You can remain on anti depressant tablets for as long as you like.
    I enjoy the safety, security of my mind, being able to control my emotions effectively and better able to order my life to my needs, to the exclusion of all else, most of all.
    If however, you decide you want to come off them:
    You simply cannot go Cold Turkey, that simply does not work and you will mentally harm yourself.
    Reduce your anti depressant medication by 1/4 of a tablet each week, until you are off the medication completely.
    If you feel weird at any time, go back on your full dosage and try again a few weeks later.
    Seeing a Psych simply does not work and you should save yourself the money spent, to do so.
    Good Luck and Best Wishes……..

    Anonymous January 19, 2020 4:54 am Reply
  • I was feeling sorry for you but then you said you was transgender…

    Anonymous January 20, 2020 5:12 am Reply
    • You are the problem, what the fuck is wrong with you?

      Anonymous January 20, 2020 8:08 am Reply
  • Hey I know it’s not likely but I hope you are still alive, if you don’t have anybody that cares for you I can be that person. I’m also trans, though I don’t suffer from bad depression. I hope you’re okay.

    Anonymous January 20, 2020 8:11 am Reply

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