For over a year now I have been thinking about suicide everyday, almost all day long. The doctor said he can’t really help me because I already went through therapy when I was 17 for my anxiety disorder, and they don’t have anything else to offer. Besides I wouldn’t have the money for it anyway.
I tried getting a more active social life, to distract me. My family and I don’t get along and they make me feel bad about myself so I tried making friends but I guess I’m not good at it cause it didn’t work. Thought it’d be great to be a student but I hate it as much as I hated high school. Actually very disappointed by everything. I don’t really know what to do now.
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Hi there, I was in your position my whole life, and im currently amazing, I used to cry myself to sleep every night, I got badly bullied and had terrible mental health.
Please do know that you are never alone, Just because you get frequent suicide thoughts doesn’t mean you have to act upon them, i have bad anxiety and i sometimes get those thoughts but i learnt that its just gonna come, so. i accept it and ignore, and move on. As for your health, there are many clinics and websites to help provide support in tough times, just do some searching in your area (phone books, newpaper, internet, etc). Sometimes seeing another professional can give new insight or recovery to your health, believe me – there’s always something you can do alongside your doctors to live the best life you can.
My personal advice is to be yourself. show confidence and try break from your shell -these qualities really attract people, but if youre struggling talk to someone you trust. for help, or practice by looking online for social tips. Learning social tips and posture, body language etc is key to successful friendships and relastionships. If there is something you like or want to learn, maybe consider joining a group or team for your local area – or even have a look around for places to meet other people (events, markets, festivals, fairs) or even at charities or social groups!
Also, being a student may be hard but if you want to be successful and happy, remember that being filthy rich wont ever make you happy or fufilled. Stick to what you love, your passions and that in itself will take you places. Everyday is an opportunity to do something , to learn, to grow.
Best of luck
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