I wish I get complimented for my appearance and get hit on, for once.

I have a small group of friends, and we spend a lot of time together. We all went to the same school and used to be in the same class. So I saw how other people and classmates interact with them.

They will gets compliments and get hits on all the time, people would say that they’re gorgeous/cute/ beautiful. It hurts me more when we’re hanging out together and they’ll get hit on while I fade into the background. Not once did they compliment me as well.

It’s clear, and I don’t deny it either, that I’m the ugly one of the group. Every time my friends get compliments on how beautiful they look, I acted like I don’t care even though I’m actually really jealous of time. Guys would often go to me to asks about them, (their phone number, what they like, what’s their birthday etc). The more guys came to me to ask about them, the more worse I feel about myself.

One time, a guy that I liked who moved school DM my friend and asked to hang out. My friend asked me to go with her. She mentions that he wanted to see me to. (My friend didn’t know that I liked him.) I got all excited about it. When the day comes, he showed up and spend the hangout chatting and complimenting my friend. I just sat there like a dead log, just eating my meal. We chatted, but only for a bit. I went back home feeling horrible about myself.

I thought it was my personality, maybe I’m just not interesting enough. I’m just ugly and boring. I’m trying my best to try to appear more interesting, but things remained the same.

I would like to be in a romantic relationship, but seeing how things are now, I don’t think I’ll ever be in one.

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